were the fuck have YOU BEEN??!! {btw rant/ update below  BUT commission info all the way at bottom}

well u know college trumps my art life sadly ( ;_; ) and so does financial woes
( TT n TT ) BUT! i've learned alot!

Like how to make organic conditioners, home made massage oil, home made nail polish, new friends, fix cars, get rid of a tick epidemic, get better at gardening, modify ugly cloths into cute stuff i like,and LOTS AND i mean  lots of other shit!

so huge art stuff update soon because i have been arting just havent had the time to post anything..... things i havnt forgotten......


i know i'm horrible  and its killing me! im dying inside that i havn't done any of it. u don't understand! so much shit going on i haven't had time to breath. *sigh* I literally squeeze art into my life; other wise there will be none at all and that for me leads into a fucking dark dark road....*nods* Which leads  me to my next topic VVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVV

i've finally made a choice:  i'm opening an esty store. Where i will fill it with all the things i make. of course i will still come here. Of course i will still try to sell my furry art exclusively at www.furbuy.com and on FurAffinity of course, but also any over flow and stuff that has not been sold will be posted there .... because ..... why the fuck not ^w ^

Other then that there is nothing else really. Other then I've had my bumps and lumps from college. Like the fact that the semester is almost over and STILL my financial aid hasn't come in yet.... its a long a fucked up story. Don't worry i will get it.... its the college's fault but it was a long battle to get that to work out.  But that gives me financial strains that effect my college; like the fact i cant order books. So i had to figure out a crafty way to get round that issue. which i did, it requires a lot of work but it works. Its free  and i still get the same results. Just makes things a little harder. And then of course the usual struggle with college courses and their work load requirements

My car i  fondly called Abigale White; i had to get rid of because it broke down.Long story short with that was a coolant problem. Water in the oil = broken car and SUPER BAD! Had to spend all of my savings to get back my old car (that is fixed) but that too still has some minor issues. But its significantly less issues and minor problems that i can fix myself.

I had best friend issues.  Or ex-best friend i shud say. Anyways my ex-biffl of [b]10 yrs[/b] is no longer my friend over some insane lama drama to which i find out, the reason she broke ties with me, was because she was jealous that i picked a phone call from my boyfriend over hers....... and literally found any reason to break ties with me..... yeah stupid fucking horribly stupid. So not only am i not allowed to hang with a certain group of friends because she+ another "friend of mine" does not want me there. So it was bad enough that they don't want to be friends with me because i'm was being a realist and stood up for my beliefs{add to the fact that i didn't take their shit and they didn't like that} BUT NOW i cannot hang with a whole group of friends because of them. So fine... but  Now  she talks through other ppl like a fucking harry potter owl message relay system to tell them to tell ME shit....hmmm more stupidity. But that's fine because of that i made new friends and i'm more happy that i found a way to stand up from falling from that stupidity and they teach me new shit all the time like how to play magic the gathering! I have my first deck thanks to one of my new friends. (for free but shhh dnt tell him i said that. its post to be a secret but u know im so happy and grateful he gifted me this custom deck in protector sleeves n everything that i cant help but mention it!)

I got trolled by my ex over a facebook; cuz of a feed of mine he happen  to see. To which i ALSO found out he troll/stalks me through his mom's account. Yea he literally waits till his mom is off the computer signs on to her stuff or even if she leaves it open to stroll through my shit.... lovely.

I had to take my beloved dog of 8 yrs to the shelter because of this horrible tick infestation to which i spent almost $500 to get rid of them including daily picking of ticks and baths etc. and while i did my best to save him i was loosing. and he was suffering and so i took him reluctantly to the shelter and even tho he was an aggressive dog he was not to the point where no one can become familiar to him, etc. But the shelter didnt wanna hear it. They put him to sleep. I cried the whole day, it got worse at the shelter, i vomited when  i left and i still cry. But it was necessary. Now my 3 other dogs are currently tick free and everything is well. but it hurts me now  to the point of tears to type it. and i still feel like a monster and still feel useless for not doing enough. But everyone that knows the details of that story knows i did everything i could and that was the last resort. But i still cant help but get emotional. It does hurt it really, really hurts so badly.

I had parent issues.... yeah lets not go there.... to much shit to write. but basically since i'm broke i cannot move out. I mean there are  moments of peace where its nice. but when shit hits the fan its like it erases all the good like it never existed and that in and of its self is fucking stressful.

Remember when i said i learned how to make home made conditioners.... yeah that wasnt because i was curious. That was because i was losing hair... and lots of it. And i had to do some research and figure out why. And i found out because of all the stress... that i have Alopecia (this is straight from wiki "Alopecia is the medical description of the loss of hair from the head or body, sometimes to the extent of baldness. " More specifically i had Telogen effluvium ( again straight from wiki"Telogen effluvium is characterized by massive hair loss as a result of early entry of hairs into the telogen phase. Emotional or physiological stressful events may result in an alteration of the normal hair cycle."
SO i had to do something about it. i was  starting to see patch baldness. And ppl often said " oh its because your dying your hair too much" blah blah blah. No i put my foot down, did my research and found out wat i could do as home treatments. And low and BEHOLD my hair has grown back......

BUT THERE WAS GOOD. Me and my new current boyfriend have celebrated the 6th month mark 2 weeks ago and already going on 7... my how time fly. And everything in that area is going well (and well is putting it mildly tehehe) btw this is the boyfriend that my ex-biffl called an asshole after meeting only once because he refused to reveal his ethnicity to her and eventually she got jealous and broke ties with me because i picked his call over hers because he and i were having issues.  Yeah.... he is here and i don't at regret choosing him over her. The my actions revealed a deeper problem with her.... she changed as a person for the bad and petty. But i cant control that and ive learned that.

I lost FIFTY POUNDS NIGGA!!!!!!!!!! yes, ive been trying to loose weight for some time now. lately ive been a bad girl but right now at a happy weight of 237lbs from where i was at 280 (back in may) i say ive made fucking awesome progress! And i found out i can bike 25 miles in 4 hours (which was from my house to my boyfriend's house) It took all of strength. But when i made it i almost cried i was so proud.  These few months ive not been putting up art has been  hell and Elysian fields. But im still here, im still alive and im doing better then i ever was

ALL in all i no longer believe the words of others soo easily.  I do my research, i find out the facts from multiple resources before i devise a plan to fix it. And every time i come out on top with the desired end result. Its not easy but the result was worth the work. With hard worth, gentleness, honor, exercising good ethics and grace ive made lots of big choices that has changed my life.... for the better. And tho its not all lollipops and robot rainbow unicorns (pun intended) i'm still here, and writing this i realized how much ive accomplished in such a short time. So forgive me for the lack of art but RL drama tends to trump art.

+++++++++++++Commission information++++++++++++++++
Everything below is of course made to order and is unique because i am not a machine (6w  6) wat i do and DO NOT + etc, all the way at bottom or just message me! :3 i'm happy to help

rated G-XXX

...(digital only).......................................(traditional or digital)...
sketches> $3+..............................inks> $7+ or fully colored $10+
Examples:
fully colored(includes full color + background)warning boobs [link]


~~~~~~Cranial Crunching Critters(aka head nom nomy hats)~~~~~
Example:
[link] (sketch/before)
[link] (end/after)

..............$10-25+ (depends on the complexity) ..........................

**** Hex Breakers DreadFalls {the # is the amount you get} ****
Examples:
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[i didnt realize i never posted them on DA)

++++++++++++++{ 9tails }+++++++++++++++
{they are LOOOOONNNG and they are on hair bow ties.}

++++++++++++{ Friday13 }+++++++++++
{short and layered and they are on hair bow ties.}

+++++++++{69 Nymphetamine }++++++++++
{curly and layered singles AND NOT ON HAIR TIES!}
...............  Message me for Details and $$ Prices$$  ..................


(Current color mixes feel free to ask for colors and pick ur own combos!!)

9Tails
Royal Xmas (xmas colors +purple)
Raty Tails(black fade to pink)
Bruises ( black and blue swirled with purple)

Friday13
Strawberry Sorbet (orange n pink swirled)
Bride of Frankenstein (black n white)
Vanilla Swirl ( green n pink swirled round white)
Halloweeeeen Halloween(purple, black, orange n red)

69 Nymphetamine
WhiteOut (blond fade to white)
Star Gazers Night (Blue n Purple swirled with a yarn that's blue/pink/purple )

   ::::::::Custom vampire fangs::::::::::::
{soon to come but message me anyway }


....................What i Do's and DO not's ..............
**Please don't ask to do anything that i wouldn't show in my DA gallery.( like scat, water sports and cub/baby porn.) Everything else is fine!
** if you don't wish me to show the piece in any one of my galleries just say so right off the bat, i don't have a problem with that.
**Please note that i will not ship until i have received payment. Yes you will be notified of progress (i.e shown sketches and what not) So you know i am working. The same day i get payment is the same day i ship if not i will let you know why.

PAYMENT
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SHIPPING

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